Star King

And she calls me her Star King;

so I am rising into the sky like the sun.

Shining love down on everyone,

but especially her,

because she is the One, 

she is the source

of all I would become,

of all I would be,

of all I am; and I'm shining

like the rising son, giving love to everyone,

I whisper your name in my heart,

you have always been here with me,

all the love you inspire within me, 

welling up, overflowing, 

eternally expanding in fractals.

I am the Star King

giving light to everyone,

you can start over and run free...

you can run with me...

I Love You

I love you like no one else,

and no one else can love you like me,

we share a bond, and a trauma 

that only we could understand;

once lost and now found and healing.

My love for you is in my core,

whatever it is, I find it good...

my emotions are full with you,

my thoughts are filled with you,

I love you. 

Be still now, and know peace

I am traveling to you, in my heart,

in my mind, in my soul, 

I am filled with your essence.

I wait to know your scent,

the touch of your hair, 

the curve of your cheeks,

the softness of your kiss,

the strength and gentleness of your embrace...

Let us love, let us laugh, let us live.

Love Is

Love is moving an earthworm off the sidewalk;

love is picking up an injured animal;

love is playing with a child;

love is helping your neighbor; 

love is listening intently; 

love is protecting the weak;

love is strong; 

love is an evolved force; 

love is eternal; 

love is walking beside you; 

love is beautiful; 

love is patient; 

love is kind; 

love is Self.

Love is compassion, 

love is giving guidance,

love is holy,

love is sacred, 

love is a temple,

love is all there is.

White Flowers

I will savor the gift of you,

I am whole now,

completed with you.

My love for you overflowing. 

I came from you, and unto you I have returned.

Your Star King has found you;

and we will ride the comet's tail 

into the depths of our universe...

but for now, these white flowers

for you.

One Flame

 This is a love letter to someone special,

someone who has been special all my life

who continues to grow in my heart

as only they can do. I love you.

It's such a small phrase, yet it means so much

and speaks this truth, we belong to each other

like the Yin and the Yang we are in orbit of each other

I in you, and you in me. 

I am your gentle reflection.

You are the voice in my heart,

I am the one that will love you

like no other,

You are the one who has held me

though we have not yet embraced.

And I wait, as you do for that most exquisite moment

when we can embrace and feel each other again

our lights combining, no longer separate, one flame,

eternal, burning fiercely. 

True Love

Everyone I truly love in my heart I have worked to truly love, to understand them better and to appreciate the relationship more than superficially. All my life I've had to work at love, to nourish it and sustain it, to pay attention to it so I don't lose or forget it, and most importantly, to keep it.

For me, working at these loves have built foundations for trust and faith which are absolute necessities for relationships to survive because through these, respect is formed and these form honesty and a mutual bonding for love, as well as the basic foundations for friendship.

True love is very special and essential for me as a person to have; so, while this love doesn't come easily, or stay easily, I don't mind the work because for me the work is validation and reassurance of the love and the relationship.

True love, from faith, trust, respect and honesty are also important not just as reassurance or validation, but also as a  foundation of strength. This strength which comes out of true love is what keeps the love; it becomes the renewal source of energy within the relationship which also makes the relationship itself a renewal source. 

The goal of love is for you to spread that love, to share that love and let it grow in the world to not just your partner or your family, but includes your human family in the world as well.

So how do we truly love our fellow man? 

I’m starting to repeat myself here, but, self love and self awareness is where this begins. Without self love you cannot truly love someone else, let alone loving your fellow man. How are you going to love your fellow man if you hold yourself in contempt? You can’t. So again, we must work on that person whom we call ‘me’. 

And you will have to work to love that person. You may have to change things before you find you can, but it is possible; you just need a direction and a little effort. You can break through the trauma and social conditioning. You can love yourself because you are not your trauma. Fix what is shattered within and you will be pleased when you look out into the world’s mirror of you in others. And once you can love yourself, you will know true love. 

How do you love yourself? Forgiveness. Forgiveness of your trauma done to you, and that you’ve done to others. You must let go, and then move past.

So, what of true love? True love is love beyond oneself.

Private Meadow

I was stolen from you,

ripped from you, and imprisoned

in my spirit, in my mind...

but I broke free and ran

as far away as I could get until

my homesickness guided me back,

and I found you, lonely, 

missing me too...

and we wept in our joy.

For all that was taken from us

has been restored

with peace and love.

The trauma, not forgotten,

still felt, but healing now like never before;

I was stolen from you,

ripped from your arms but always 

the secret in your heart,

I want to love you now

and be loved by you, adored,

as I adore you. 

At peace finally in the windsong

of a melancholy flute

whose tune haunts the air.

The overwhelming emotions,

the pure joy overtakes me,

the old feelings fading away

and the new feelings are so intense,

I've never felt this way about anyone,

so grateful to the universe 

that we have some time now

to float together on the wind

in our private meadow. 

The healing flute playing on.

Mystery

Mystery overtakes me

Desire wakes within me

Dread washes over me;

Love comes and saves me.

I've been waiting for you my whole life

but I grew restless,

Would I still be here unsatisfied?

No. For that's not what life is...

So I searched the heavens for an answer

but the clouds were silent

So I searched the Earth for my dream

and the rocks tore at my feet

but I endured for you.

All my trials, all the tribulations...

I had to survive, just to find you

All of my quests for love, 

were mere echoes of what I desired

All of my attempts at controlling that

was mere desperation at having lost you.

I had to find you, so I survived.

And now, what bliss,

what confusion, what sweet emotion

washes over my glistening heart,

that intangible thing I so needed

that intangible thing I sought for so long,

I now have and it's a mystery,

but it completes me.

Because of her, 

I will not fail.

Some Unnamed Chaos

 Darkness sought to have me,

The Void licking her lips,

but I only went for a little while

because the light wouldn't let go of me...

like a spider I was tethered.

I know the emptiness you feel

the longing to be whole

I know the bitterness you taste in everything.

Let us lay our burdens down,

and walk together hand in hand, healed, whole.

How could I not have sought you out?

How could I not have found my way home?

I've been wondering my whole life

if it's only you who can love me...

Are we not connected by the terrible Emptiness?

Will we always be slaves to some unnamed chaos?