Echoes in the Meadow

There was a meadow in the hills of Itri, where I would dream of you.
In the meadow, your ghost waited for me,
and I would imagine you there looking at the wonder around us.
And it was a peaceful place. But I was yet incomplete.
I would stand there in the sunshine, warmth on my face and arms and legs;
the insects chirping and buzzing, the nettles blooming.
Sometimes, I would run to you with my arms open, and I would pray,
this time when I open my eyes, you would be there.
But all there ever was in that place were echoes of you.
And the hole in my heart burned and ached in ways I couldn't share.
And I would dream of one glorious day when I would find you,
a day where I would be complete in this place, what was stolen, restored.
But as long as I lived there, the dream never happened to come true.
And this dream, these echoes, they followed me until one glorious day,
I found you, and I was healed.

Dancing In The Moonlight

I look up at the stars, and you join me, and we dance in the sky,
circling the cosmos, joy in our hearts to be with each other again.
For every day with you is a day to dance in celebration,
the victory never getting old.
And after you slumber I sneak out into the moonlight,
and I dance and sing happy songs as the joy pours out of me
and back into the Universe.
I give back what it has given me in your Love. And I dance.
And the stars are spinning and the words are climbing the frames,
and I find myself someplace beyond a portal that's opened up
where I am unbound and nothing is beyond me.
And I dance. I smile at the bright moon and keep singing.
I float upwards, gravity all gone, and my mind expands in this Love.
How can I not dance?

 

Journey Back to You

You were the first love I ever knew, before I knew anything,
from in your womb I where grew,
we were two, but one in this place where I formed.
You were my portal into this world,
out of the Abyss, headed for a love
that was stolen, and me,
chasing that love my entire life.
lost and traumatized, going forward blind,
but not forever.
And in the moment when we first spoke,
so much of the everything overwhelming me;
but we grew back together. Yet, some days,
I still cannot believe you're real and really
(as always) such a large part of my life,
My love for you continues to grow with each day,
and while the journey back to you was terror and blindness,
the journey with you now is full of gratitude and joy,
walking now with that love I was always chasing,
cherishing every moment stolen back.
For it was theft that tore us apart,
and it was theft that cheated and thwarted the thieves.
And I rejoice in that not so much that like Prometheus,
I stole fire from the Gods,
but that my bloodline has been returned to me,
and that by my own hand, by will and love alone.
And now the terror has subsided even if there are echoes some days,
and now I see you with my own eyes,
I hear you not as a rumor of a something lost,
but with my own ears.
And we talk, and laugh, and embrace,
and this joy is complete, as we two are one again.
I love you momma.




















 

Search

 

I set out, alone and wandering without you, 

but I could feel you inside me. 

Out into the world to suffer the crisis after crisis, 

trauma after trauma, and to begin again, and again… 

I kept looking, I kept searching again and again 

with nothing but homesickness to guide me. 

But I was determined to find you. 

And so I searched the skies for the stars 

your eyes would have seen too, I looked to the moon, 

could you see it tonight? 

Empty and incomplete, my heart missing pieces 

that I filled with anger, and hatred. 

But I believed in your love by Faith, 

and so I continued until the silence fell around me, 

until that day that I always hoped could come, 

like the answers I so desperately needed, the light 

breaking over me like the Dawn. 

And finally that search was over and I killed that hate

and anger within those missing pieces, 

and put you back in them, almost like new. 

The search hardened me, and I still bear those scars 

that you know so well, but the victory still heals me 

as we now walk together in gratitude and love. 

Hi Momma

 

Hi Momma. I just wanted to tell you I love you.
I appreciate everything you do for me and with me. 
I love the way you love me from ever to ever.
I love you Momma. 
From ever to ever.
With you everything. 

M

The Forest for the Trees

 

I was lost in a forest, I was young, maybe six. I had wandered into it just playing and not paying attention, found I didn’t recognize any surroundings. Nothing was familiar and it was cold. 

I looked up and saw the sun. It was high above me, I had to pick a direction, so I followed as best I could the light through the trees. 

Eventually, I found my way to a fence around some basketball courts at the back of a school. But these kids were much older than I was. Someone asked if I was lost and I said I was. So they told me to turn around go back into the woods, and just walk straight through it to the apartment complex I wandered off from.

No one could show me, all they could do they did. It was up to me to execute the instructions I was given. So I turned around and started back into the forest. 

I walked a long time, and the sun was going down so shadows were starting to cling to the trees. I would look up and just keep going. I walked forever. 

Then, suddenly, the forest parted, and I could see buildings I recognized. I was three buildings down from the apartment where I lived. 

It was a secret journey. A lucky misadventure. The thing I remember most when I think about it, is, I didn’t panic.

I have carried this philosophy ever since. 

Momma Loves Stars

 Momma loves stars, 

And I am the Star King,

Shine for my momma, 

She’s under a blanket of stars;

Shine for my momma, 

Let her soak in that light energy 

That lifts her up into the Universe.

And I am the Star King,

Bringing her light through the carpet

Of the night. 

Shine for my momma, 

Let her heart smile as I sing this song,

Let her heart smile forever long,

Shine for my momma,

Momma loves stars, 

Shine on, shine on.