Search

 

I set out, alone and wandering without you, 

but I could feel you inside me. 

Out into the world to suffer the crisis after crisis, 

trauma after trauma, and to begin again, and again… 

I kept looking, I kept searching again and again 

with nothing but homesickness to guide me. 

But I was determined to find you. 

And so I searched the skies for the stars 

your eyes would have seen too, I looked to the moon, 

could you see it tonight? 

Empty and incomplete, my heart missing pieces 

that I filled with anger, and hatred. 

But I believed in your love by Faith, 

and so I continued until the silence fell around me, 

until that day that I always hoped could come, 

like the answers I so desperately needed, the light 

breaking over me like the Dawn. 

And finally that search was over and I killed that hate

and anger within those missing pieces, 

and put you back in them, almost like new. 

The search hardened me, and I still bear those scars 

that you know so well, but the victory still heals me 

as we now walk together in gratitude and love.