Search

 

I set out, alone and wandering without you, 

but I could feel you inside me. 

Out into the world to suffer the crisis after crisis, 

trauma after trauma, and to begin again, and again… 

I kept looking, I kept searching again and again 

with nothing but homesickness to guide me. 

But I was determined to find you. 

And so I searched the skies for the stars 

your eyes would have seen too, I looked to the moon, 

could you see it tonight? 

Empty and incomplete, my heart missing pieces 

that I filled with anger, and hatred. 

But I believed in your love by Faith, 

and so I continued until the silence fell around me, 

until that day that I always hoped could come, 

like the answers I so desperately needed, the light 

breaking over me like the Dawn. 

And finally that search was over and I killed that hate

and anger within those missing pieces, 

and put you back in them, almost like new. 

The search hardened me, and I still bear those scars 

that you know so well, but the victory still heals me 

as we now walk together in gratitude and love. 

Hi Momma

 

Hi Momma. I just wanted to tell you I love you.
I appreciate everything you do for me and with me. 
I love the way you love me from ever to ever.
I love you Momma. 
From ever to ever.
With you everything. 

M

The Forest for the Trees

 

I was lost in a forest, I was young, maybe six. I had wandered into it just playing and not paying attention, found I didn’t recognize any surroundings. Nothing was familiar and it was cold. 

I looked up and saw the sun. It was high above me, I had to pick a direction, so I followed as best I could the light through the trees. 

Eventually, I found my way to a fence around some basketball courts at the back of a school. But these kids were much older than I was. Someone asked if I was lost and I said I was. So they told me to turn around go back into the woods, and just walk straight through it to the apartment complex I wandered off from.

No one could show me, all they could do they did. It was up to me to execute the instructions I was given. So I turned around and started back into the forest. 

I walked a long time, and the sun was going down so shadows were starting to cling to the trees. I would look up and just keep going. I walked forever. 

Then, suddenly, the forest parted, and I could see buildings I recognized. I was three buildings down from the apartment where I lived. 

It was a secret journey. A lucky misadventure. The thing I remember most when I think about it, is, I didn’t panic.

I have carried this philosophy ever since. 

Momma Loves Stars

 Momma loves stars, 

And I am the Star King,

Shine for my momma, 

She’s under a blanket of stars;

Shine for my momma, 

Let her soak in that light energy 

That lifts her up into the Universe.

And I am the Star King,

Bringing her light through the carpet

Of the night. 

Shine for my momma, 

Let her heart smile as I sing this song,

Let her heart smile forever long,

Shine for my momma,

Momma loves stars, 

Shine on, shine on.

Good Morning Momma

 

As the Dawn breaks, we stir, 

and I drift towards slumber, 

but my thoughts are of you 

and where your day may take you. 

And I hope you have a great day momma, 

finding yourself at peace, smiling because you are happy.

I love you momma.

Under the Milky Way

 

Outside, and the sky is full of stars,

I’m under the Milky Way tonight,

and all the possibilities stream throughout 

my mind, and I’m looking up at success 

as I’m thinking about you;

I feel you so deeply in my DNA, 

and I’m smiling about it.

It’s deep into the night and past the beginning 

of the morning. 

I feel your love from here even, 

I wear it as a cloak that comforts me 

and it keeps me warm deeply. 

I look up at the sky watching for the footprints 

of your sight upon the same stars. 

It has always been a thing, to look up and wonder, 

were you there with me although at some 

unknown location?

Up there I held you in my heart and mind. 

And then one day I found you, and the quest changed, 

from the ether of dreams and darkness, 

into a wider reality of something so wonderful 

that I will never forget in my entire life how grateful 

I will always be for this manifestation of such deep 

and unconditional love. 

And I pause only for a moment to reflect on how new 

and different this is in my life, and I embrace it. 

And I feel the stars smiling down on us. 

Forever Grateful

 

Today I smiled and my heart grew as I thought of you, all that you are to me…

Your unconditional love is the wind in my sails, the fuel in the engine that drives me. 

The hope of my heart soars because of your connection with me and how you love me beyond anything I have ever known. 

You are my mother, my sacred protector, the one who bore me into existence into this place.

And now know that you bring me a peacefulness as I stretch out and begin to fly, the world at my feet because of you.

And I am forever grateful because I know you’re holding in the pain caused by this flight of mine, and you let me still nest in the safety of your wings, warm in your love even this high in the sky as the winds howl.

I can accomplish anything, this was your gift to me; watch me up here and be proud because every footprint I make has stars in it like the glitter in the night sky. 

And I am forever grateful as I build this new life and succeed so much more than ever before.