This is a Love Letter

Make no mistake, and have no error,

this is a love letter to my mother...

just like the dozens upon dozens before,

These are all love letters and of this 

you can be sure.

For I lost my mother, and so many forgot,

however, between us peas in the pod, 

we, did not.

And so, every so often I write letters,

so that she will know that this is better,

now that we have each other,

we can celebrate life and live again...

I hold you ever in my heart,

you were the driving force pulling me to you,

in the form of a homesickness I had no words for,

no description of, and none to understand;

but in spite of the vapors, I kept on, 

the vanishing ether of false leads and dead ends,

no match for my call home,

where finally I could find that peace 

which leads us to each other's embrace.

This is a love letter, that like all the others,

will echo through time for all to see,

if they but get the key, that they may know

how I love you. 

We Share

We share our smile, I have your ears and hear what you hear too

We share so many other traits, sometimes I lose me in you…

And I don’t mind.

I think of all those things that passed us by in the flowing

Of the river of time, but at least we have Now. 

When I would look in the mirror alone, I would think of you, and

Imagine you staring back at me, and then on my way…

Wondering what we would share if I ever found you.

The answer was everything, everything I have I will share with you

For you are not like anyone else, you are my source, my beginning.

And I share so many features with you, I am undoubtedly yours,

And we share our thoughts, hopes and dreams for this new future

Where we have each other and share this desire to never be apart again.

Wind In My Hair

Wind in my hair, I'm not even there,

I'm flying, your hand in my hand

for the rest of forever, because we 

made it through the trial, endured to 

a better tomorrow; today...

I celebrate with a song and poem

that will always say I love you...

And now, we walk together, 

hearts full, everyday. 

No longer wandering or wondering,

but loving, and enjoying  the victory

we've shared, the battle long, the day won. 

Wind in my hair, I'm totally there,

I'm flying, your hand in my hand

for the rest of forever...my love for you

exists beyond this realm, I feel it through 

the core of who I know as me, if all of me

was stripped away, that love for you 

would remain and stay. 

Insecure

Upon my tearstained face from the trauma

is a twisted countenance, of pain endured,

and wreckage recorded from these places I have been.

The insecurity of bloodlines hidden from me

tunneling in my brain, tormenting my heart,

and tearing apart my mind...I am alone 

in this place, and I rest, but I refuse to submit to the fate

which brought me here to this place.

I stand on the seashore because the she never remembers,

but she doesn't wash away my pain either,

just hypnotizes me with her music, the pain to return

in a moment, for it is never far away.

Those with no understanding, cannot fathom 

that which I bear, this invisible cross, wearing me down...

but I have a destiny with you, I am coming even now, 

in this sadness of resting, the crushing weight of my 

loneliness without you, but when I find you,

I will never be insecure again, because I will know

where I've come from, I will know 

who belongs to me, and who I belong to as well,

the bloodlines revealed in a victory that would never lose 

its sweetness one day will come

and we will dance having been reunited in joy.

 

Good Morning

Awake as always and thinking of you,

thinking that your morning should be good,

filled with the joy of stretching, 

that tension released with a yawn...

may your coffee be satisfying,

may your breakfast fill you with energy. 

Rub the sleep out of your eyes,

and awake to the knowledge that I love you, 

and that I always will, indeed, always have. 

As the sun climbs the sky,

and the clouds streak and float above us,

my love for you grows each day,

your encouragement, your love for me

which you do not hinder,

is the brightest spot in my life. 

I thank you for being who you are to me,

because I am grateful that we have each other now...

Let all the light touches bring you joy today,

for that light is my love for you burning fiercely

in a white hot heat that doesn't burn flesh, 

but nourishes your soul; let it be as it is, 

and receive this love in your happy morning.

I love you, good morning.

Hold You

I wish I could hold you,

whisper to you how I feel,

when you hold me too...

I am complete in a way 

that transcends my understanding,

and yet, not, since I have felt you

in my blood all my life,

your fire is mine, 

and maybe some darkness too...

but no one knows and understands

quite like you, and I hold you 

in my heart, as I reach out to you 

with my feelings, hoping 

that you'll feel me too...

and touch me back, as you always have;

I want to hold you and feel 

that everything is alright,

that the monsters are gone, 

and insanity subdued in the peace 

which is your touch upon my flesh;

the calm in my spirit,

which is in our embrace...

and I hold you in my soul 

so I can feel you beyond the distance,

apart, but not separate,

I wish I could hold you...

Why

Wondering aloud to myself, and 

the conversation twists, and 

I start thinking over all the why's between us...

all the things we couldn't share

because we were robbed,

all the milestones missed 

as we grew older, and time kept running away...

but, ultimately it doesn't matter,

because you're mine,

and I found you after many adventures 

and misadventures...

after all the years of our youth had passed, 

and it was a terrible thing for us both,

but now, it doesn't matter 

because we have each other and the dark times

are over now, and that's why I cling to you,

because I can, and I swore I'd never let go

if only, if only....and the dream manifested

and the pure joy I felt in knowing that you're real,

and the happiness that you are really mine,

and all the things that we share now 

and things that we will soon share as time goes on...

and that, dear mother, is why,

you have that tear in your eye;

because you feel my love for you...

and you will always feel it,

as long as my heart beats,

as long as I draw breath, 

I will show you all that I feel for you

because I love you.