Thought about something darker today
the lonely times of emptiness as I grieved
in the emptiness of a place that once held you.
And as I remembered the hot tears streaking
and the ocean I ran to for forgetting,
I remembered a dream that held you
as I kept you alive in me.
That dream that I would be held by you again,
somehow, someway, I would keep myself pure,
and see you in the mirror beckoning me ever closer
as I wound my way through the jungles of Hell in my mind.
And I continued just because…
And then in joy and terror I found a way to you,
I didn’t know if I was ready, but if not now finally,
when?
And I jumped at this chance, this sacred thing
that drove me, sometimes, like you, it drove me crazy…
my mission almost completed, a leap of faith into
the unknown, by the incomplete, to be made whole again.
And then order began to be restored…and that ocean began to remember again:
It’s filled with life and hope under the ever shining stars.
