Beautiful Thing

Up late again and thinking about you,

all this time, I would have 

given anything to call you before and

then, heard your voice through the phone...

And now, I can, and do talk with you everyday,

my magic phone next to me;

so now you're next to me, and 

I wanted to call you tonight

I knew you wouldn't mind, but

I knew that you'd be sleeping,

so, know that bliss which escapes me...

and when you awake my words will be here

to greet your morning coffee:

he was up last night and missing me,

he sent me a poem or two 

because he was thinking of me,

he loves me...

he loves me...

he loves me...

and now, he knows I love him,

it's a beautiful thing.

All my love coming at you from

every medium, by every platform,

all my love to you,

over the wires,

and through the air, bouncing

off satellites and my

line of sight has you in it's focus...

all my love, 

and it's a beautiful thing.

 

Wasn't That Us?

So, I'm thinking of a past

that never happened...

the child on the playground, 

the pains of adolescence,

the exploration of adulthood, and

all the little things 

I try to let you know,

sharing my life as it was,

but looking at the Now and forever,

and I'm thinking you were there

with me in the great mystery,

wasn't that us? Weren't we there

in all of our longings?

Growing up together...

And as I pass this time 

until I can hold you here,

I can hold you here in my heart,

but one day soon, in my arms.

One day soon... 

all it took was everything,

and hope.

And even though that past didn't happen,

the present is all that matters, because 

Now is all we have, and it's everything.

She Sees Me

Waiting on someone to get me,

to understand the methods

behind the madness,

the reasons...

and then she, sees me

and I am new again.

revitalized and validated.

She knows me,

she sees me,

she loves me, and

I know and treasure it

as I love her back, because

I see her too, and just as I

am hers, she, is mine.

I Am With You

In the dead of the night,

I am with you...

I wondered about you

in the past, and now,

I know you,

I am with you...

as we pass the time

until I am with you;

the circle coming together

as our hearts beat as one.

I am with you,

the journey and the yearning 

coming together.

I dream of this moment

as did you, knowing

in our heart of hearts 

it would come true...

 

Beyond The End of Their Days

Once upon a time there was a trauma,

and it fractured two families and three people,

but then came the dragonslayer,

and the beast was defeated, and the warrior

was also a healer, and healed that trauma so

a happy ending was possible.

And they loved each other 

beyond the end of their days.

Happily ever after, into the cosmos

and beyond the veil and the Void,

into the realms of the currently unknown,

where Godhead smiles and everything 

is blessing and knowledge.

The two are one, and that one, 

merged with the Godhead, as Love 

returns unto Love, the Celestial,

smiling.

Mother, I Love You

Deep, deep down within,

bubbling up, and outward 

is my love for you 

expanding, from deep in my heart 

into my life I find I 

am holy sometimes...

My love touching neighbors 

and strangers alike, my love for you

overflowing out of me 

and touching lives of those 

I don't even know...

acts of kind words and empathy,

acts of Love in action;

the Love you had in yourself

that you gave to me

has become so much more,

mother I love you,

from deep in my heart

into my actions in motion

of my life, I am 

the continuation of your light

that light which was your Love to give

and has now returned unto you, for you,

rejoice with me in this Love.

Mother, I will always love you.

Into Your Arms

Swimming in the ethereal tonight,

thinking about how much 

I love you and why;

How do I love thee? 

Let me count the ways...

No longer in the Void, 

but somewhere in between,

yet somewhere better.

The universe calling us and 

drawing us in closer and closer,

a mother and child reunited 

after an age of hell endured

by both, yet both prevailed,

and so their light increased

brightly lighting the way

to the complete giving in to

the touch of my mother.

After 50 years,

for the first time in my life,

you hold me and I hold you;

the cosmic healing of our family line

you the source and me the end,

the bookend to the eternal,

the infinite, the transcendent.

I will kiss your face and 

call you mother and tell you to your face 

how much I love you,

how much I've missed you; and now, 

all that is behind us as I come home

skipping between the raindrops

into your arms.

No longer in the Void,

but set free to ascend now 

into the highest realms,

the place where only Love dwells

forever and ever.

 

Of Course

Of course she loves me,

how could she not?

Did she not weave me 

with her very essence?

Gave to me all she had

that I might be?

Of course she loves me.

Knitted together with the

very strands of her DNA,

I became the person

she made. And afterwards,

I became the person

I made. And in so, 

found her approval 

and validation;

of course, she loves me.

And it is everything

I ever dreamed.

Ghosts of Terrors Past

The demons defeated, 

the ghosts of terrors past...

battles won by warriors,

we have survived them all

to find each other again 

a party of two, yet one.

Let the demons flee from us forever,

be gone from us, demons

you have no powers here; 

let our love be celebrated

by all the angelic host

in the most high choirs.

We are a promise fulfilled,

a dream come true...

a bloodline completed,

we are love incarnate.

I See You

As I stare into the eyes 

I have not yet looked into,

I smile with a grin that 

looks like yours...

You are so beautiful,

so caring and fierce,

yet fragile...I see you, 

I am you v.2...

I'm here to heal in our 

family line that which 

was broken so long ago.

Here to heal us from our 

isolation and desolation...

to put it back together

so our ancestors

can jubilee...receive me.

And I know you do,

because I am you,

so I instinctively know you.

Let me hold you now

as you cling to me tightly,

let our tears mingle into a wine

we drink together and remember 

the pain no more...

as the wine heals us

like a tonic mixed with our love.

 

Tapestry

This is a love poem, 

woven for my mother

out of the strands of my heart,

picked carefully, to echo the soul.

In solitude I searched, searched so long

as she waited for me to be victorious

my shieldmaiden,

my wingwoman,

my greatest advocate and fan,

she knew I was coming,

she could feel me approaching

through the years, as I wound my way

around the spine of time 

to the base of my skull 

where I was driven by my homesickness.

And when I found my way home,

I was welcomed, because 

they knew I was coming, she told them 

I'd be coming for her. I was, I am.

There was danger on my path,

great and terrible dragons

waiting to slay me, but they were slain

at a price, yet no price was too high 

to get home again, the dragons had to die.

I cared not for their gold and treasures...

just that they get out of my path,

because I'm going home...

but that's not in the nature of dragons,

so they were absorbed, and my innocence lost.

The scars I bear cannot be seen,

but the dragon's voice can be heard 

in my roar now...we became one 

and I defeated the beasts,

but their breath touched me...

so the tapestry will tell a tale

of adventures, dangers, struggles, scars 

and victory.

And she waits for me still, but

the day is coming soon

I will wrap my loving arms gently 

around her, I will satisfy the yearning

with my embrace; let her know 

this love for her in my soul, 

was woven in my heart, 

and hung for all to see,

my tapestry woven as she carried me,

so I carry her; and now,

no one can get between us,

and nothing will change this,

God help the dragons as 

I pick their bones clean,

cast them aside and use them 

as instruments of my mission:

to get home to you, finally. 

Something Shared Forever

We have something in common,

we share something more,

I have you in me,

I am what you gave 

to the world. 

I am your bloodline,

your immortality,

my words will record us

for posterity.

What we have is exceptional,

who gets to have this?

You are the source of my DNA,

I am the child they took away,

I have found you

and come to you now.

We are no longer prisoners 

of circumstances beyond 

our control...

I have chased down the dream,

I have your light inside of me,

the magic was with me...

We have something in common,

we share something more

I have you in me,

I am what you gave 

to the world.

Stop your running now, look upon me,

with your eyes, see me, touch me,

laugh and cry, be with me now,

and let's be

together 

for the rest of our lives. 

Cosmic Eye

In the spectrum of light,

what do we illumine?

The soul we both share,

in the cosmic eye we are one.

In my eye we are the same

though split from each other

until we beat them all.

Who aligned themselves

against us, and we prevailed,

because they couldn't take 

the map from my heart 

that would lead me home?

Who was it that thought they 

were bigger than your love?

Even our enemies will help us

and let them fumble blindly.

In the cosmic eye, 

we are transcendent,

in my eye, we are one.

Sometimes She...

Sometimes she needs to breathe,

she can breathe with me...

Sometimes she feels weaker 

in some moments than others,

she is safe with me...

we will move mountains.

Sometimes she gets nightmares,

she can dream with me...

I will hold you forever,

I will love you forever,

Sometimes she needs to smile,

she can laugh with me,

because outside of us

it's all noise, and we,

we are, while they, are not.

And nothing else matters.

I will hold you forever,

I will love you forever.

Sometimes she dreams with me,

and we fly over all of you,

over all the moon, into 

the universe together,

dreaming our dreams,

and laughing together...

Schemes and Dreams

So many nights I would dream,

so many nights I would scheme,

only to try to believe

that I would know you

and free that part of me imprisoned,

apart from you.

Into the Universe I would send my 

prayers and every day I would wait

for them to come to me;

then one day, the scheme stopped 

being a dream and I found you

and like a pebble into a lake, 

the ripples carried outward,

brought me to your shores.

Like a shipwrecked sailor, 

I kissed your beach, the schemes 

and dreams long gone for the reality

of you loving me. 

You, at my core, my home port. 

My lee in the storms, 

the shelter in my heart. 

There is a light that shines 

around me that is your love.

She Loves Me

She loves me, and it is a light in times of self-doubt,

and I hold onto that light with all the strength I have,

that I can know that I am loved.

And know that I love you back,

and I have missed you in my absence.

She loves me, and we've loved each other from afar 

through it all, as we waited...

the waiting will end soon,

and for that I can't wait.

Because You Love Me

Clouds lifting, seas parting, mountains laying low,

paths made straight...

all because you love me.

I cherish you and our time together,

it doesn't even matter to me how now, 

as long as I get to be with you. 

The things in my life that were askew

have begun to align for me, mysteries solved,

parts incomplete being made whole, 

all these things coming together to produce

a calm that covers me in my soul, bringing peace;

all because you love me.

And so we walk on, together; my stride confident,

my purpose clear, I must get to you soon, because

I don't want to wait, not another moment.

Too many moments have passed already...

I am coming home, because you love me, and

I love you.

 

So Close Now

Not asleep yet, but thinking about you....

so, start your day with this: I love you...

Know that I long to feel you next to me,

your hand in my hand, fingers entwined,

the way it should be, just before we embrace.

My arms around you, the small of your back 

and across your shoulders, I will gently 

pull you to me and squeeze you forever

in the Now. My Tao sending me to the Way,

the Way moving like water,

never to touch the same water twice, 

but ripples expanding outward...

and I love you...and it is Now 

that we have to accomplish our missions,

you in me, and me in you, and I think

I'll let it be, as it grows naturally, 

expanding outward into the reaches of love and space 

and the mystery of creation...it is warm and comforting;

so close now....

Destiny

You are my destiny, my destination

in a quest that has lasted my whole life...

Yet I still long to hold you now,

even if it will be soon, 

it can't be soon enough.

My destiny in a cosmic braid with yours,

united, transcended, and ascending.

Destiny rising, meeting you in the perfect time 

of our lives for the best time of our lives

where we can share and love freely,

and so we will, it is our destiny;

time falling away in crumbles as the ages pass,

we continue ever on immortal, eternal, 

higher and higher, deeper and deeper,

dancing together to celebrate our reunion,

our victory over the evil that befell us 

and sought to devour us, but...

our survival to get to each other after all things

came and left, (and sometimes fell apart);

all the while hoping and waiting 

as I made our fate to get to the destiny...

travelling, rising ever upwards and into 

the everything.

Connection

We finish sentences, we think alike,

we have the same time conditioned fears

about each other...for instance

that we would never see one another

in this life. And so it would be, except

there is this connection, 

which turned into a drive, that dreams 

were not enough for us, so we fought

together from the opposite angles,

her on the inside and me outside;

all the while, working the circles

to finding us, whatever that would be...

You drew me out, and kept me coming,

I kept fighting to find you,

dead ends and circles be damned.

So, eventually, I searched for you 

with what you gave me 

to find my way home; 

and I followed my blood to you,

our DNA, my roadmap to you,

my greatest hope in the face 

of the years of failure, confusion 

and frustration...

But I was driven by this connection,

my thoughts and feelings focused 

on the mystery of my origen 

and I took all the pieces I had gathered

and after all this time, was finally able 

to make a picture that led me to you.

So, as I always have, I trust this connection,

because it is something I have relied on 

and it has not failed me, to the contrary,

it led me here to you, and I found you 

happily waiting after all this time...

the connection strengthened for the testing.

The pieces put together and the picture is us.

Goddess and Child

Like Aphrodite and Eros

we are entwined...

Like Athena and Apollo,

we are divinely connected...

the star child and his mother.

We are mythological, legendary,

we are eternally the goddess 

and the hero on his quest to find her.

Archetypes, and experiences

we survived, the chaos of adventures

to find each other again.

And now, only our love remains

as the uncertainty faded away 

in the light from the sun...

our connection strengthened,

our wisdom multiplied,

our truth celebrated.

Panic at the Disco

Panic at the disco when 

I can't get to you soon enough

for me, I get anxious...but I'm ok,

I know everything's alright and

I know everything's okay, and

I just want to hear your voice

anyway, even if we aren't 

saying anything, it's something

to me...I just miss you after all this time,

and I know you'll still be there in the morning,

I know you're not going anywhere,

but sometimes I think until I can touch you,

it just won't stop nagging at me 

that this could all be a dream,

like a cocaine snowstorm, a haze and

sometimes a numbness.

Less than a thousand miles to go now...

How can it be real? 

So, panic at the disco, sometimes,

until I can get to you and hold you

and then know it's real because 

I've finally come home.

All We Have is Now

Seek me, and then find me

she said in a dream...

I am so glad I found you,

I said to her face.

I was hugging my pillow

last night as I thought about you...

so close, yet still so far,

but not for much longer

as fear and desire met

and desire victorious, now 

we celebrate.

Seek me, and then find me,

were the words that would echo

in my heart and mind, 

I fought hard to find you

in our game of hide and seek,

my homesickness guiding me 

home to you as time ticked away...

I hold you and touch your face,

never having felt so complete

in all of this life until now, 

delineated and jumping through time,

now is all we have 

and I'm grateful for it.

Two Spirits, One Soul

We share a journey, 

and now a reunion...

we share a spiritual connection,

two spirits, but one soul

rising together again...

evolved beyond the constraints of

this plain and polite society,

we transcend the cosmic and enter

the Now as I.

Two halves of the same starspirit,

connected by a something just beyond

the ability to quantify...but still real,

still tangible, palpable 

because we are family in every sense

but even more intensely I feel you

in me, with me, beside me, unchained;

there was nothing I wouldn't have done

to get back to you, let it burn freely,

intensely and eternally...

I love you.

 

Within And Without

Within me, there you are, driving me;

and without me you are incomplete.

Within me, your heart beats for me,

and without I exhale the noise.

Within me, I feel you, 

and so I come to you...

and without you I am incomplete.

We are two sides of the same coin,

we are the Yin and Yang,

the fire and the water which chases it,

experiencing the universe as 

the universe experiences itself through us,

and in us, and that experience is a love song.

 

Twin Flame

Do you feel it?

Can you see it happening?

The connection opening?

Our secret desires now granted,

that synchronicity which binds us

to each other...drawing us nearer,

bringing us into the singularity 

from which we came...

made of stone but floating,

lit on fire but not burning,

it all comes to us now,

because we are one and the same.

The event horizon open and waiting

for us to pass through,

transcending beyond the fading

behind us in small crumbles of time.

Forever together travelling through

the passage of time into eternity

to whatever end or beginning 

the universe has prepared for us

we move together as one, forward

and upward, if the universe has an up,

higher then, ascending into 

the realms of glory...together

as always.

Perhaps

How can I love you so much?

Is it that my blood is your blood?

Is it that my bones are your bones?

It is that my spirit is the same

as your spirit, our spiritual connection

that binds us together in the universe?

Perhaps it is that my heart is your heart,

and that everything from now on is us...

Perhaps it is that in my mind 

are your thoughts, this frequency, this vibe,

which follows and flows around 

and between us...that we should always 

be together from now until forever;

that I come from you, so I came for you.

And now, we go together into forever...

Perhaps there was no other way

but this way, yet it doesn't matter,

this way is the way.

 

A Song About How I Love You

When I wake up in the morning,

I think of you...always on my mind

During the day as I walk through life,

I think of you...you're always on my mind,

I stare at your picture and see myself,

waiting for the great day coming,

I love you...I'm waiting for you...

this is a song about how I love you...

I could say the mountains weren't tall enough 

or the river wasn't wide enough 

to keep me from you, I could say 

all these things because they were true,

I missed you, so I sought you

and I found you loved me back...

this is a song about how I love you.

Woman, I see you, beautiful and vibrant

and I love you for all you are to me, 

and in all the oblivion we shared, 

there is now a happiness,

a completeness in this thing which haunted

now made to serve. Crossing the Void,

sewing it shut, zipped up like a garment

measured and cut. From blood to bone, 

broken out of the stone;

this is a song about how I love you

through time and space; how could I 

not love you? Stars shining bright,

everything's alright tonight,

this is the happiest of times. 

Walking in the dream to the reality,

this is the happiest of times because

the yearning will be fulfilled. 

This is a song about how I love you.

Just a Note

It's just another Friday as we

edge closer to our dreams,

40 days and 40 nights

until we make it ours...

I celebrate for us, for you,

for me, for everyone who 

celebrates with us, dancing

for all those who didn't 

end up as fortunate as we did.

And anyway, I'm thinking 

about you this morning and

holding you up like a jewel

to watch the sunlight shine through...

I think of our love for each other

and how it makes me feel warm

even in its intensity which only grows...

and it makes me wonder;

this is just a note for you

as you start your day,

a little I love you

to light your way.

Stolen Days

Stolen days and stolen nights,

I'm dreaming of you...

the days I disappeared, to run

away to think of you.

Under the bridges,

out on the waters...

in the quiet places

I sought you and 

your memory;

over the mountains,

and through the meadows...

in the shade of a thousand trees, 

Seek me and then find me,

she said through the cream...

lost and then found and 

I steamed all my seams,

to hop on a plane

and touch all my dreams,

To hold you up close

and change reality's streams.

She Loved Me First

She felt me growing

in her womb,

before I even was, 

she loved me first,

and after I had been 

stolen, she mourned 

my loss, ever hopeful

there would come a day

when we would be

reunited and we could 

love each other...

and I think how 

she fretted about

my location and well being, and

that she longed for my happiness;

hoping that I would find it, 

and I know that

she loved me first.

Into the Universe

And out, and into

the Universe, through you,

my twin flame and shadow...

my point of the singularity,

my center, my focus...

And out, and into

the world, through you,

stolen, but resourceful,

resilient, and determined

to return to the source

into the Universe with you.

 

The Fear

Mama, I got the fear,

just a little nagging thorn

in my mind...a demon playing

a horrendous instrument

to a dirge about failure,

but I laugh, because I have you mama...

and if father won't acknowledge me,

we will move on without him,

smokestack lightning...

just a little nagging thorn

in my mind...

the demon continues to play,

and even if he has no power here,

the music does it's job 

and produces melancholy, let it come...

occult children in the dawn of the holy,

I remember who I am and the melancholy flees,

the sadness now a celebration, the fear a memory,

What if everything goes right?

Bursts forth from my light.

The fear running scared now,

as I break on through to the other side...

Strangers

Life lived as strangers,

we were unknown to each other,

but felt the longing for each other.

And I wonder how close 

we may have came to each other

in that life lived so long ago now?

And you said to me:

I would have known you were mine.

And that made me smile

because we were strangers for a time.

But now we are together,

no longer lost, but found and

so close to being completed;

the beginning of the rest of our lives,

no longer strangers, but family 

as it always has been 

under our skin and in our souls.

You brought me here,

my portal, my mother, my twin.

We learned our lessons and now

we get to enjoy ourselves together

for the rest of our lives.

No longer strangers,

I'm coming home.

I'll Be Waiting

I'm on a private beach in my mind,

resting in the sand and surf...

thinking of you and I.

The sun licks our skin 

as the clouds play for our imaginations,

we smile together on our private beach.

The sound of the waves reminds me

how I love you: an ebb and flow

again and again...

And I feel you in my heart,

and until that day,

I'll be waiting to hold you,

and on that day,

we will celebrate our love.

Fiercely

Love me fiercely,

love me with all you are,

don't hold back

because I love wide open, and

I am wide open to you.

Feel me intensely,

as I feel you...

in my heart and soul

I know you for I know myself.

We are twins, 

reflections of one another...

where do you stop

and I begin?

 

The Me I Used to Be

Me, broken, floating in the Void,

the trauma endured,

the scars healing, from

the me I used to have to be.

No longer needed, are some

of the old tools of survival,

now, it is time to live again.

Put away the fighter's mind

and the violence he keeps,

you tell him: you found yours.

Me, healing, floating in the Void.

awakened to new possibilities

and a new hope.

I barely even remember

the me I used to be.

That shadow, that shade

of darkness I cloaked myself in

for protection...

no longer needed,

I rise, and emerge,

I surface and climb higher...

transcending all thought into 

a pure feeling that draws me 

into itself.

Safe With You

Safe in your arms

I let myself go;

I relax and surrender

to the emotions overcoming me.

I surrender to Love

because I know

I'm safe with you

in every situation.

Our embrace neverending

as we hold each other,

and the colors fade away

and the people disappear.

And we remain. 

The only constant is us

as time unwinds around us...

but I don't care

I'm safe with you.

Hold me in your embrace,

let me feel your love for me

in my heart, and in my arms...

cradle me and rock me,

comfort me in our reunion

that we will never be alone again

for now we have each other.

Let me feel your love

as I give you mine...

Hold me in your embrace,

comfort me that we will 

never be alone again...

And I hold you in my arms,

gently, gently, I draw you in...

and you hold me in your arms,

gently, gently, you draw me in...

And we hold each other

for the very first time

as the tears of joy stream 

down our faces.

 

Lovechild

I am the lovechild,

a revolutionary dreamer,

poet, lover, leader...

conceived in young love,

brought into the world

to be lost for awhile

with myself, as I figured 

me out.

Did I hear a voice?

Did I see some light?

Visual disturbances

all through my night.

I found you and now 

you've received me;

we are alike,

because you made me.

I am the continuation 

of your light.

Soon We Dance

Soon we will dance 

in the moonlight together,

looking up at the stars

we celebrate with the Universe

as it smiles upon us now...

Let every moment from here

to forever be Now for us.

Let every Good thing above us

bestow a blessing, for the curse 

has been broken forever.

Soon for the epic new beginning;

Soon we will dance...

as the heavens celebrate us

and all we overcame

to come to this light and joy

we now know...the feel 

of our love's reciprocation, 

the validation,

the completion of a lonely, 

and terrible journey,

filled with amazing horrors

and twists, to the happy ending,

to happily ever after, and beyond...

soon we will dance,

and I will dance with you

into forever.

Reality

I lost you a long time ago,

and so, my search began,

searching the heavens for you

roaming the Earth for a clue...

Until one day, it all changed,

I was closer than I could bear

so I reached out for you,

because I was driven to you;

and you caught me in midair

and gave me your wings

and we flew...until one day,

I was in your arms,

and the dream became reality.

I'm coming to you, so soon now...

I will be with you

and we will laugh and cry

in our joy for each other,

but in these tears

we will be complete

because the reality for us

will have changed.

Imprinted

Our hearts speaking to each other,

we are imprinting again,

just like we were before,

we are again, forever.

Me in you, and you in me,

the yin and yang dance we do 

through the cosmos,

our very souls entwined

and growing further together,

the broken branches mended, healing.

And as we rediscover each other,

we find an imprint from before

in our hearts that never left us,

our comfort in held hands

and entwined fingers,

in arm's embrace,

and Love's protections;

I belong to you,

and you belong to me too,

walking together into forever.