Felt but Untitled

So, in your embrace I hide, I melt in

that safety, that reassurance, 

the warmth of you next to me, 

pressing our love together...as we hold each other.

The angels sing of our victory

which will never get old,

not from time, not from distance, 

not from lovers, friends or family;

Angels sing because our story is Hope,

our story is Promise,

our story is about unending Love

which drove me through the darkness

and homesickness to you.

And I will never forget how I have longed for you,

I will never forget that happiness everyday at seeing you,

at knowing you,

at loving you 

and being loved by you.

This story tells the tale of your emptiness without me,

my emptiness without you, but

now completed, as we have found each other

and are free to love as we were always meant to.

I love you.

Your Touch

And so it is, since the day I was stolen 

I couldn't stand to be touched by people,

but I craved the tactile reassurance 

of a loved one missing in my life...

And I survived in protective shells, 

layers of armour to keep my cold heart warm,

an ember I kept for myself, burning with hope

and love, even though these things were fantasies.

Until that one day when I found you, and I reached out

and ever since that day you have touched me...

the touch I craved for so very long, now embracing me,

healing me, healing you. 

 

Stronger

 

I reach down on the floor and pick up the pieces

of the heart that you made me; and I put them together again 

so they may heal back stronger than before, 

because it's what we do, and we shall grow stronger still...

I will not mourn forever, but know this:

even in my mourning, I love you, and I never see the sun 

without you now...even in this dark time for me, 

I know there is you, waiting for me, and I love you.

Even in my mourning I look ahead to the time that is coming 

in it's time, the time when we laugh and don't look back,

because when I can do that, this wounded heart of mine 

will have healed. 

Because I love My Momma

I know everything will be okay, 

despite the turmoil I'm in right now...

the creeping malaise that makes 

everything uncomfortable;

I will get past it because of your love for me. 

I will endure it because I know there is hope;

I cannot be sad forever, 

because I love my momma, 

and that love that she returns to me, 

this is a love I can trust,

I know everything will be okay 

despite the turmoil I'm in right now, 

because I love my momma 

and because my momma loves me.

 

Reaching

Tonight, I am reaching out,

for your light that sparks my own,

to regenerate, to rejuvenate my soul...

let your love heal me from the wounds

I have found in me.

Let your light be my light tonight,

for tonight I am dimly lit. 

In the place beyond time we are sleeping,

dreaming, in orbit of each other,

dreaming, of this place and this time, watching:

In the darkness of the ignorance 

that was pulled over me

I sought you. 

Remembering that even in the blackness

of the Void, I found you.

Without even a memory to go on, 

I remembered you. 

Tonight, I am seeking you out 

because you are my source, my origin,

and just as I found you, to your delight, 

I seek you again to help me navigate

by your shining love showing me the way

lighting my path through the uncertainty,

that I should always remember that

you love me, as I love you. 

 

Celebrate Us Today

Today is a special day, today we celebrate us

for the first time since I came here 

through the portal. 

So, inside me is a melancholy, I cannot quite explain 

these things which haunt me still, 

these echoes of ghosts past...

but even though they are gone, 

I can hear these echoes, and worse,

still feel them in my skin. 

This is not anything but a cross I bear 

evidenced by the scars I wear. 

I will celebrate us today in defiance of my wounds,

because I found you and we are together,

because we won, even though the victory 

was hard fought with famine for decades, 

we won, and now we will always be together,

no longer pawns of an insidious industry:

the evil that drew us in and then pulled us apart

for the profit to be made off our innocence. 

We celebrate us today in reverent remembrance 

of the pains we endured at their cruel hands 

and we remember each other as we always have 

on this day, but this day, today, is different, 

this day we have each other not in our thoughts 

and lonely aching, but in an embrace with our arms,

in the holding of our hands, 

the child has found his mother after 50 years, 

and now, together they live and flourish, sharing 

and loving with no time to waste, 

a banquet is being held in Heaven today,

my ancestors smile upon me and reveal themselves 

as we celebrate us today and our victory 

over the tyranny of evil men.

Let not this day pass before I tell you 

I love you, I was driven to find you,

driven to know you, and all you are as I am.

Apple meet tree.

All This Time

So many years ago now, you dropped a pebble in the ocean,

the ripples radiating outward from yourself to the furthest realms,

and then they hit the shores of distant lands and reflected back; 

Those ripples carried me far away, and on lonely seas,

but when they found you again, I was complete,

made whole, even with the scars we bore from life's' cuts. 

I was sent into the world alone and scared, but I grew and survived,

learning the turns with my cunning, to eventually find you 

in my travelling. And now, we enjoy each other's company like we never could before,

time spent together, the best time, whether we sit and talk,

or do something else, it's all fun to be had and enjoy...

as we trade stories, and exchange treasures, we laugh and cry together 

finally understanding what normal must have been all this time.