Stronger

 

I reach down on the floor and pick up the pieces

of the heart that you made me; and I put them together again 

so they may heal back stronger than before, 

because it's what we do, and we shall grow stronger still...

I will not mourn forever, but know this:

even in my mourning, I love you, and I never see the sun 

without you now...even in this dark time for me, 

I know there is you, waiting for me, and I love you.

Even in my mourning I look ahead to the time that is coming 

in it's time, the time when we laugh and don't look back,

because when I can do that, this wounded heart of mine 

will have healed. 

Because I love My Momma

I know everything will be okay, 

despite the turmoil I'm in right now...

the creeping malaise that makes 

everything uncomfortable;

I will get past it because of your love for me. 

I will endure it because I know there is hope;

I cannot be sad forever, 

because I love my momma, 

and that love that she returns to me, 

this is a love I can trust,

I know everything will be okay 

despite the turmoil I'm in right now, 

because I love my momma 

and because my momma loves me.

 

Reaching

Tonight, I am reaching out,

for your light that sparks my own,

to regenerate, to rejuvenate my soul...

let your love heal me from the wounds

I have found in me.

Let your light be my light tonight,

for tonight I am dimly lit. 

In the place beyond time we are sleeping,

dreaming, in orbit of each other,

dreaming, of this place and this time, watching:

In the darkness of the ignorance 

that was pulled over me

I sought you. 

Remembering that even in the blackness

of the Void, I found you.

Without even a memory to go on, 

I remembered you. 

Tonight, I am seeking you out 

because you are my source, my origin,

and just as I found you, to your delight, 

I seek you again to help me navigate

by your shining love showing me the way

lighting my path through the uncertainty,

that I should always remember that

you love me, as I love you. 

 

Celebrate Us Today

Today is a special day, today we celebrate us

for the first time since I came here 

through the portal. 

So, inside me is a melancholy, I cannot quite explain 

these things which haunt me still, 

these echoes of ghosts past...

but even though they are gone, 

I can hear these echoes, and worse,

still feel them in my skin. 

This is not anything but a cross I bear 

evidenced by the scars I wear. 

I will celebrate us today in defiance of my wounds,

because I found you and we are together,

because we won, even though the victory 

was hard fought with famine for decades, 

we won, and now we will always be together,

no longer pawns of an insidious industry:

the evil that drew us in and then pulled us apart

for the profit to be made off our innocence. 

We celebrate us today in reverent remembrance 

of the pains we endured at their cruel hands 

and we remember each other as we always have 

on this day, but this day, today, is different, 

this day we have each other not in our thoughts 

and lonely aching, but in an embrace with our arms,

in the holding of our hands, 

the child has found his mother after 50 years, 

and now, together they live and flourish, sharing 

and loving with no time to waste, 

a banquet is being held in Heaven today,

my ancestors smile upon me and reveal themselves 

as we celebrate us today and our victory 

over the tyranny of evil men.

Let not this day pass before I tell you 

I love you, I was driven to find you,

driven to know you, and all you are as I am.

Apple meet tree.

All This Time

So many years ago now, you dropped a pebble in the ocean,

the ripples radiating outward from yourself to the furthest realms,

and then they hit the shores of distant lands and reflected back; 

Those ripples carried me far away, and on lonely seas,

but when they found you again, I was complete,

made whole, even with the scars we bore from life's' cuts. 

I was sent into the world alone and scared, but I grew and survived,

learning the turns with my cunning, to eventually find you 

in my travelling. And now, we enjoy each other's company like we never could before,

time spent together, the best time, whether we sit and talk,

or do something else, it's all fun to be had and enjoy...

as we trade stories, and exchange treasures, we laugh and cry together 

finally understanding what normal must have been all this time. 

 

A New Poem for Mother's Day

I found you, I have you, and I love you;

no longer to wonder and grieve on this day,

this time, we will hold hands and smile

and laugh, grateful that the awful spell

has been broken.

I will say, " I love you." and this day,

you will hear me, I will embrace you,

and this time, you will feel me

and not your pillow...

because I found you, a whole new world

for you and me, together finally

with my mother; the world 

holds magic still, that magic

brings me to you,

here comes the magic again...

and in these in-between moments, 

I will hold my breath, anxiously 

waiting for the next time with you, 

for if we are together every minute

until the day we die, it would still 

not make up for the time they stole from us...

but you knew I was coming, and I knew 

I wasn't going to be denied, for I am 

a hero, our hero, the hero of our epic 

story which begins and ends with love:

our love, and that is our magic. 

I love you. Happy Mother's Day.

I Love You, Another Love Poem....

Here it is again, another love poem....

another chance, and opportunity to tell you 

just how much I love you. 

As you listen to me and hear my joys and pains,

I surrender to you the secrets I have held in my life...

I surrender to you the love in my heart 

which always had a hope; that became a reality

for us both, as we found that we both craved the same thing:

each other, back.

And now, we share our stories and our joys and pains... 

and we walk together no longer alone or torn apart

that missing piece that was never able to be put back,

found.

I will hold on to you in eternity, I will never let go of you,

you are my fountain of life, the vessel in which I arrived.

You are my beautiful source of everything,

if I have a question, I know I can ask you.

I know you love me because you show me and tell me,

and I love you, as it has always been,

the same as it ever was.