Why

Wondering aloud to myself, and 

the conversation twists, and 

I start thinking over all the why's between us...

all the things we couldn't share

because we were robbed,

all the milestones missed 

as we grew older, and time kept running away...

but, ultimately it doesn't matter,

because you're mine,

and I found you after many adventures 

and misadventures...

after all the years of our youth had passed, 

and it was a terrible thing for us both,

but now, it doesn't matter 

because we have each other and the dark times

are over now, and that's why I cling to you,

because I can, and I swore I'd never let go

if only, if only....and the dream manifested

and the pure joy I felt in knowing that you're real,

and the happiness that you are really mine,

and all the things that we share now 

and things that we will soon share as time goes on...

and that, dear mother, is why,

you have that tear in your eye;

because you feel my love for you...

and you will always feel it,

as long as my heart beats,

as long as I draw breath, 

I will show you all that I feel for you

because I love you.

What I Think Of

Reaching out into the Universe tonight,

thinking, thinking of you, and I miss you,

and hanging out and playing...

Tonight, we occupy the same space,

adrift in the cosmos as we sleep,

my stars in progression...

And I smile in my sleep because

I dreamt a dream where somebody loved me,

and that somebody was you.

And in this unbounded Now, 

we exist as one being, each the other's other...

in this place we'll call my mind,

I will show you around to this surreal time, 

because when I'm with you it stops and flies,

and we just keep creating it, because it's what we dreamed,

but the dream came to life and I saw it and jumped,

reaching out to you because of all it really is...

everything to me turns on us, the axis of my reality

is you, and that's what I think of 

when you come to mind, (which is all the time)

because all time is Now that we are together,

time to make up before time runs out, before 

time ends...until there is no more time

and all that's left of us is our unbounded Love. 

And gratefully, joyfully, I celebrate with you,

because we no longer have to wait...

We are Order, out of Chaos.

We are the Light, out of the Darkness. 

We are the Joy out of the great, and deep, Sorrow.

And in this wonderful, beautiful Now, 

we are no longer alone. 

And in the crisp melody of the chimes chiming,

birds chirping and sun rising, we awoke, apart,

but not separated...

Adrift and Dreaming

Let me love you in what's left of this life,

for every turn of the tide, 

in every ebb and flow of time,

I stand at the beach, looking 

at the rising sun...searching the horizon

for any trace of you, lost

in the flotsam and jetsam, awash in the mystery

of my existence. 

When I find you, I will keep you as close 

as your heart beat...for my heart beats with your

blood in my veins, can you feel this pulse?

Up the beach the wind carries me to the jetty,

where fishermen seek solace and answers

to questions that puzzle them in the night.

What's left of this life with the turning

of the tide again?  I've grown weary with age,

but my passion is the same, waiting to find you,

and one day I will hold you as you hold me

and we will love each other beyond time.

Until that day, I'll love you from here,

adrift and dreaming.

I Love You So

I love you so much,

I cannot explain how or why 

even though I have my ideas...

you are in my blood, you are in my spirit,

everything I became, was your gift to me, 

we are a oneness experiencing a duality,

we are a spirit experiencing bodies 

and the motions of movements; 

we are twin flames and mirrored images

of each other, peas in a pod...

you are my mother so I am here because of you,

and as we share this experience with each other

we grow together again in the secret ways

of the universe. You and I, becoming us...

and expanding into the Universe, 

an expression of Love 

within the Cosmic Mind.

For The Rest of Forever

And just like that, I arrived with you,

having grown in you for the time appointed to me,

and when we were driven apart,  I was lost in it,

but I found in me the you I dreamed of and created,

it was in my mind, but I made a picture of happiness,

the kind that doesn't go away, with a love that wasn't conditional,

and I created a place in my head that I felt 

with the emptiness in my soul.

It was with these hands I built a garden of peace and love,

a sanctuary for us, a place to just be and love...

I think of the mystereon that was my conception,

what was it to come here other than to find you?

To be in you and grow next to your heart, 

to hear you speaking, to breathe with you...to know you

so I could find you after the great trauma,

I built a bridge with these hands across the impossible

because I loved you and you loved me and it will always be we;

we are one because I can feel you in my blood, under my skin. 

In you I became a being in this place, you, 

my portal from the Great Love into reality...on some level

I remembered you and longed for you, 

these things now a memory of a time that will no longer be...

the Void now stopped in place,

and again, just like that, I arrive with you 

for the rest of forever.

Missing You

Staring into my mind tonight, 

thoughts swirl around me,

my heartstrings playing a tune 

about how I'm missing you as we're apart...

even though I know we'll be together soon.

My heart is full, but aches today,

separation anxiety playing tricks on me,

like the ghost of a dog you once knew,

bouncing back and forth, running away

with me, sometimes.

It's the natural reaction to the trauma 

we endured I suppose; 

I know I still carry the scars and the

survival methods that kept me alive to find you...

but tonight I'm staring out and my heart shines

with a gentle ache missing you.

 

3 AM

It's 3 AM but you're on my mind,

and I think you should start your week 

with a smile, so here I am in your mind

whispering things like incantations,

strange voodoo, good juju...all the magic

is ours as we think in the same synchronicity.

Sands in the hourglass dripping and shifting

in our favor, the universe conspiring 

to bring us together to correct the grave error,

the Empty Terror...those endless nights ended,

the unconscious Will brought us back together

to restore order in our universes...

that reality would be righted for us and serve

as an example of Grace to others.

Thinking of you, holding you, sitting next to you,

I take none of it for granted now that I have you.

The clock ticking out as the sun starts to rise,

living in the twilight of Dawn,

living in the dawn of Twilight...

it goes around and around

as I hold your hand, 

but you knew this already...

and so we wait until,

and on that day, we will embrace and smile

like you are right now..