Wind In My Hair

Wind in my hair, I'm not even there,

I'm flying, your hand in my hand

for the rest of forever, because we 

made it through the trial, endured to 

a better tomorrow; today...

I celebrate with a song and poem

that will always say I love you...

And now, we walk together, 

hearts full, everyday. 

No longer wandering or wondering,

but loving, and enjoying  the victory

we've shared, the battle long, the day won. 

Wind in my hair, I'm totally there,

I'm flying, your hand in my hand

for the rest of forever...my love for you

exists beyond this realm, I feel it through 

the core of who I know as me, if all of me

was stripped away, that love for you 

would remain and stay. 

Insecure

Upon my tearstained face from the trauma

is a twisted countenance, of pain endured,

and wreckage recorded from these places I have been.

The insecurity of bloodlines hidden from me

tunneling in my brain, tormenting my heart,

and tearing apart my mind...I am alone 

in this place, and I rest, but I refuse to submit to the fate

which brought me here to this place.

I stand on the seashore because the she never remembers,

but she doesn't wash away my pain either,

just hypnotizes me with her music, the pain to return

in a moment, for it is never far away.

Those with no understanding, cannot fathom 

that which I bear, this invisible cross, wearing me down...

but I have a destiny with you, I am coming even now, 

in this sadness of resting, the crushing weight of my 

loneliness without you, but when I find you,

I will never be insecure again, because I will know

where I've come from, I will know 

who belongs to me, and who I belong to as well,

the bloodlines revealed in a victory that would never lose 

its sweetness one day will come

and we will dance having been reunited in joy.

 

Good Morning

Awake as always and thinking of you,

thinking that your morning should be good,

filled with the joy of stretching, 

that tension released with a yawn...

may your coffee be satisfying,

may your breakfast fill you with energy. 

Rub the sleep out of your eyes,

and awake to the knowledge that I love you, 

and that I always will, indeed, always have. 

As the sun climbs the sky,

and the clouds streak and float above us,

my love for you grows each day,

your encouragement, your love for me

which you do not hinder,

is the brightest spot in my life. 

I thank you for being who you are to me,

because I am grateful that we have each other now...

Let all the light touches bring you joy today,

for that light is my love for you burning fiercely

in a white hot heat that doesn't burn flesh, 

but nourishes your soul; let it be as it is, 

and receive this love in your happy morning.

I love you, good morning.

Hold You

I wish I could hold you,

whisper to you how I feel,

when you hold me too...

I am complete in a way 

that transcends my understanding,

and yet, not, since I have felt you

in my blood all my life,

your fire is mine, 

and maybe some darkness too...

but no one knows and understands

quite like you, and I hold you 

in my heart, as I reach out to you 

with my feelings, hoping 

that you'll feel me too...

and touch me back, as you always have;

I want to hold you and feel 

that everything is alright,

that the monsters are gone, 

and insanity subdued in the peace 

which is your touch upon my flesh;

the calm in my spirit,

which is in our embrace...

and I hold you in my soul 

so I can feel you beyond the distance,

apart, but not separate,

I wish I could hold you...

Why

Wondering aloud to myself, and 

the conversation twists, and 

I start thinking over all the why's between us...

all the things we couldn't share

because we were robbed,

all the milestones missed 

as we grew older, and time kept running away...

but, ultimately it doesn't matter,

because you're mine,

and I found you after many adventures 

and misadventures...

after all the years of our youth had passed, 

and it was a terrible thing for us both,

but now, it doesn't matter 

because we have each other and the dark times

are over now, and that's why I cling to you,

because I can, and I swore I'd never let go

if only, if only....and the dream manifested

and the pure joy I felt in knowing that you're real,

and the happiness that you are really mine,

and all the things that we share now 

and things that we will soon share as time goes on...

and that, dear mother, is why,

you have that tear in your eye;

because you feel my love for you...

and you will always feel it,

as long as my heart beats,

as long as I draw breath, 

I will show you all that I feel for you

because I love you.

What I Think Of

Reaching out into the Universe tonight,

thinking, thinking of you, and I miss you,

and hanging out and playing...

Tonight, we occupy the same space,

adrift in the cosmos as we sleep,

my stars in progression...

And I smile in my sleep because

I dreamt a dream where somebody loved me,

and that somebody was you.

And in this unbounded Now, 

we exist as one being, each the other's other...

in this place we'll call my mind,

I will show you around to this surreal time, 

because when I'm with you it stops and flies,

and we just keep creating it, because it's what we dreamed,

but the dream came to life and I saw it and jumped,

reaching out to you because of all it really is...

everything to me turns on us, the axis of my reality

is you, and that's what I think of 

when you come to mind, (which is all the time)

because all time is Now that we are together,

time to make up before time runs out, before 

time ends...until there is no more time

and all that's left of us is our unbounded Love. 

And gratefully, joyfully, I celebrate with you,

because we no longer have to wait...

We are Order, out of Chaos.

We are the Light, out of the Darkness. 

We are the Joy out of the great, and deep, Sorrow.

And in this wonderful, beautiful Now, 

we are no longer alone. 

And in the crisp melody of the chimes chiming,

birds chirping and sun rising, we awoke, apart,

but not separated...

Adrift and Dreaming

Let me love you in what's left of this life,

for every turn of the tide, 

in every ebb and flow of time,

I stand at the beach, looking 

at the rising sun...searching the horizon

for any trace of you, lost

in the flotsam and jetsam, awash in the mystery

of my existence. 

When I find you, I will keep you as close 

as your heart beat...for my heart beats with your

blood in my veins, can you feel this pulse?

Up the beach the wind carries me to the jetty,

where fishermen seek solace and answers

to questions that puzzle them in the night.

What's left of this life with the turning

of the tide again?  I've grown weary with age,

but my passion is the same, waiting to find you,

and one day I will hold you as you hold me

and we will love each other beyond time.

Until that day, I'll love you from here,

adrift and dreaming.