Remain

If you slip, I will catch you,

If you fall, I will fly to you to save you,

I will pick you up...

If I can make you smile, I will try,

If I can make you laugh,

then I will be smiling...

Do you know how much? 

Can you feel how deeply?

If everything else changes,

we will remain.

And this comforts me, so 

let it comfort you as well.

I was flying when I 

reached out and grabbed your hand,

come with me into the sky,

soaring all the way to Infinity,

and even at the End of Things, 

we will remain;

for we are the same spirit,

which does not pass away.

Plummet

For fifty years a free fall...

awash in an ocean of some

emotional insanity; doomed, 

to plummet endlessly,

spinning and falling, dying alone.

But before I hit the ground,

an updraft, wind under my wings,

and ascension into that 

which is peaceful and comforting,

soothing and reassuring me:

you are no longer alone,

you were never alone,

for I was always in you,

in your very blood, and I know 

this is true, for why else

would I have kept going 

if not to find you?

My blood, a map, a compass 

leading me finally, into your arms, 

a cocoon, like the womb you

formed me in...

our hearts beat together from

the most intimate experience

of conception, growth and birth,

torn apart, but now found together

as it was in the beginning, one, 

is a part of the other, that if you fall

I will catch you, for there is me 

and there is you, and we 

are halves of the same essence 

now completed...

Today is a Good Day

Today is all there is,

and today I celebrate having you,

so I turn to you and say,

"Today is going to be 

a great day for you!"

Because that's what I want for you...

Wake up and find me there 

waiting for you to find me...

and I'm here, waiting on you 

just to tell you again 

that I love you, as I will,

over and over again

until we transcend into 

Love Itself.

Awake and find yourself at peace,

we will ascend into realms 

way above all those who tried

to keep us frustrated, and failed,

victorious, remember we share 

the same heart, we share the same 

thoughts in our minds, a togetherness

I have never known, not since the womb,

but am grateful for now 

that I can touch you again.

 

The Impossible

 Deep into the night and I’m thinking about you 

Hopefully you feel better; and I’m thinking

Of the impossible that has brought me to you

Finally. 

I’m listening to the sounds 

of the darker side of the moon

And I reflect on the completed mission 

To find you and have an us.

I wanted you so much, my motivation 

Drove me onward through the famines of my life,

And I found you, after so much emptiness 

The return of the love stolen from us put back.

Driven, and rewarded with success we celebrate 

For the rest of our lives, the overcoming of the impossible.

Deep into the night and I’m thinking about you,

I love you.

Mother's Arms

I am grown and experienced, 

flavored, seasoned, weathered even...

having all my life missed my mother,

the only person I was comfortable with

taken, stolen, obscured and hidden,

and all I wanted in this world 

was to get her back. 

None understood my dilemma,

most didn't even care, and then 

there were some that used it as an excuse 

to look down upon me, because I was broken

in many places by this difference 

in me they had created, not like us...

not blood, so not really a person,

because people have roots

and my roots were a mystery...

Even adopted, not really an orphan 

but yes, it felt like that, marooned,

it was sink or swim.

The entire time I thought of her,

where could she be?

Was I on her mind as well?

So many questions that 

did not have answers I could know,

all I knew was I missed her.

I travelled the world, I searched 

high and low, I watched the sky

I stood at the shore, and waited at the docks.

But I couldn't find her, only rumors;

I have jumped in the blue ocean to forget

but I could not forget myself.

And I searched on and found 

many potential solutions presenting themselves, 

and I examined these things, measured 

against my desire and drive, my ambition,

singular; I wanted her back 

and nothing else mattered...

whatever may come, high or low,

feast or famine, to find me, I needed her.

And then one day the fog had lifted

the ocean had parted,

the sky had opened, and I found her...

and she received me, herself in distress,

because she had waited for so long

as I had, and in that one moment

it became real, and we were no longer alone,

the missing pieces, returned, placed back, fitted,

to where they belonged.

No longer broken, yet still different, but 

fulfilled now in ways that cannot be relayed...

for the experience is all at once 

so overwhelming and vexing it taxes a soul

and creates tears in the fabric of being

your heart torn, and then the demons come...  

unless the tears become the expanding of growth, 

and that all occurred with our reunion...

Demons retreating, as we gain our strength

from each other with our energy as one.

Demons fleeing, as I take comfort 

in my mother's arms.

Good Morning, I Love you

As I wake this day I think of you;

our embrace, the gentle warmth

of gratitude for our union. 

And I miss you...

The windchimes sing about us,

their voices on the gentle winds,

that our love will last forever,

and I believe them at last. 

As I hold you, I am completed

so I say, good morning,

I love you. 

Let this day be filled with us,

let the concerns of the day

melt away like tears in the rain.

As I awoke I thought of you,

I can't wait to hear your voice on the line

that we might share with each other

that love that completes me,

like a puzzle finding its' last piece,

like the child who found his mother.

When One Day We Say Goodbye

 

Today, we laugh and love and 

cherish every moment…

Today, we breathe a sigh of relief

at the having of each other.

Today we can smile in the sunshine

knowing the rain will pass 

after it comes, and yet,

when one day we say goodbye 

and nothing can console me,

because this day the rain doesn’t pass,

know, that I will be heart-broken;

Lost, in all the love I will still have for you,

even after you’ve gone. 

And again, I will be alone in this place,

having loved, and lost, but found

in me, the you that was always there, 

now known. 

And I will remember you and smile

at how alike we have always been,

and when I dream, you will greet me,

and I will tell you how I miss you,

how I thought of you the other day,

how I think of you everyday. 

And we will laugh and love

and as we are there, together, like now,

I will cherish every moment, awaiting

when I join you in the Now, beyond,

above the very essence of the universe,

We are connected still in that place, like now:

felt, but beyond sight, known, 

but unmeasured in its scope, 

and unfathomed in its depths…

I will fill In all these spaces 

with my love for you, until I join you again.

See, I believe this existence might be circular:

Nature and Spirit, amphibians peeling out 

of one atmosphere and into another. 

I will radiate this love for you in both places,

here and beyond. It is who I am.

I carry you and my love for you

into every reality I find myself in,

you are my constant in an unending 

stream of variables, and I know

that I will always be with you, 

but when I can’t touch you,

when I can’t feel your heartbeat,

I can’t breathe. Life,

but in suspension with 

these horrible thoughts of missing you.