Once Lost

I missed you today,

your laugh, and your smile

that I can hear through the distance.

I wanted to talk, but 

I stood alone, empty,

holding hands with the unknown.

I missed you today.

But then, you came back

and I ran to you,

because I cannot live 

without you again, anymore.

The silence was deafening

as anxiety painted a picture 

of the worst of things;

she lies to me that I would

run scared in the valley of fear;

I missed you today.

Is it silly? 

That you, who created me,

is such a part of me?

My twin flame, finally united,

so that we feel each other

in the emptiness, 

once lost in the darkness

to never walk alone again;

I love you,

and I missed you today.

Learning to Dance

 How do you share a lifetime of memories? The same way you feed an elephant, one peanut at a time, one day at a time. Running backwards in time, we discover the things which make us the same, our peccadillos, as we travel forward in our new lives. Everything is changed for everyone. 

And in this Joy, what is the Void but the event horizon of a portal I linger upon? Indeed, what Void, now? The smoke allows us to glimpse behind the veil and stretch out with our feelings, existing in a deeper state beyond that of just what we can see we feel each other. Through the portals, our windows, we can observe, if not understand, but, it is there. Meanwhile, we dance.

And twirling around, we embrace, leaping for Joy in our hearts that finally this day has come. And we are complete in our choreography...timing our teardrops between the smiles. Holding on to never let go again. 

Mother's Eyes

I look into your eyes and dream

of that most exquisite moment

when I can hold you;

when we can whisper to each other 

of our love, and be reunited.

I look into your eyes and see you,

we talk, and I know you

for I know myself; and I, am you.

I share your beautiful eyes, 

and all the sorrow they've seen,

joy having always been incomplete

with the absence of you.

But no longer; now,

I dream of you and your eyes

and think forward 

to all the joy we will see together,

with each other.

See me rise, sea of green,

nothing can stop me from getting to you,

that I may see myself 

with all the love for me 

in your eyes.

Express Kundalini

The twin flame unites me unto you,

Kundalini rising as we plug into

the connection between us...

So many beings encountered

on this path of ours, but none

the same as each other...drawn together.

Kundalini awakening, 

as the energy flows, 

the flames like eyes all around us,

the Ophanim gone blind

from the brightness of our love.

The synchronicities we share

unexplained until the Kundalini

where we merged, opening portals 

to realms beyond the veil.

Vishnu watching as we walk the path,

Shiva being defeated within our lives,

Brahma smiling.

As we accelerate on this train,

I hold your hand, going together

forward and upward, merging into Oneness.

And we see all the beings behind the veil,

and we laugh together with them,

the cosmic comedy unfolding 

and sowing the seeds of our love.

I am with you into the eternal

rising on the Express Kundalini.

Separation Anxiety

I am in the doldrums

waiting, watching, on alert.

Holding my breath 

as I think of you. 

I can hear your voice

tell me you love me,

and I exhale slowly 

as the tightening of my chest

releases; still, I miss you.

And I want for you

to be near me 

that I can feel you again...

like in the time of our youth

when I came to you

and we began this journey.

The feeling of echoes surrounds me,

I don’t know how to describe this 

aching in my soul that longs for you.

The only homesickness I’ve known

leads me to you, I wait,

dreaming.

Beautiful

When you love me, I will be beautiful
I will flower and blossom 
and release a fragrant scent 
upon the gentle winds, like
Honeysuckle, and Gardenia blooms.
I will be beautiful if you water me
I will be pleasing to the eye
like Daisies, or a Rose,
And full of brilliant color,
when you love me, I will be beautiful.

Starshine

It could be sunshine,

that illuminates my path;

It could be moonlight,

It could be starshine

that brings me to you.

This love has its' source in you,

this veil glimpsed, thinly worn

and thoroughly penetrated

by our shining light.

We have each other here,

we have each other beyond,

and even after this disintegration

we are. 

I am a reflection of your love,

emanating like rays

from golden stars; 

and you, are the sun.

I am the Star King

and it's starshine

that brings me to you.

This love with you;

The love in you for me

focuses me to you

for no one is like you,

and there is nothing like us,

that has ever come 

from the heavens.

My path forever 

entwined with yours.